Moved (: 

That is much easier said than done.

"There'll be no comps during graces". By right, that sms would've had made my day. But no, what follows was "RO still wants to go for trainings".

>:(

“What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think. This rule, equally arduous in actual and intellectual life, may serve for the whole distinction between greatness and meanness. It is the harder, because you will always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you know it. It is easy in the world to live after the world’s opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great person is one who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude.”

Fever came back so I decided to rest at home for the day. Caught part of oscars in the morning  (I woke up at 11) and sleep through most of the day away :}
I think I'm grown a habit of complaining about school, or projects to be exact. No, I'm not complaining about anyone this time bcus everyone's trying their best. It's just that projects, in general, are annoying. They take up so much time and the weightage of the marks is not say that much, when you compare it to eoys. Seriously, the amount of time spent on completing the projects is almost equivalent to those that I spent studying for eoys. Anw like I've alr said, I shall stop grumbling and get down to work.
Chinese SIA presentation script, here I come.

I think my forte is hurting people.

I've made a decision not to get annoyed/pissed/angry/ at any thing related to schoolwork anymore. Being pissed doesn't make the solution clearer, it just wastes my energy and time. So, I should just make good use of my time and do the work (: 
Anw i feel so relaxed (and guilty) about bio presentation, other than it not being graded. It's the first proj in a year & half which I havent been in charge/compile so I felt so happy just doing my part. But I did offer to help wandong if she needs help later on when compiling since I know that sometimes a simple task can turn out to be rly annoying. Haha I havent felt so saint-like in ages :}

On the brighter note, both NYTT C and B div got first for zonals ! Well done ! <3
(Will upload the pics once I get them from ruio. )

I think I do have an attitude problem. My attitude towards people for the past few days really sucked, to the extent that even I can't stand it myself. It's just like how you still end up making a decision which you know that you're bound to regret. Being annoyed and snapping at others is obviously not the solution but I still did it.

But it is really infuriating. For eg, project work. Some people tell you that they don't know how to do their part and ends up having you to do everything. The thing is, Idk what they dont actually know. What we're doing in projects is the same as our school work. So, they're telling me that they even dont know how to do their schoolwork ? Yeah right. They did not fare that badly in those subjects, worse come to worse. And please, if they're stupid they wouldnt even be in nanyang. Seriously, this is ridiculous. Sometime, I cant help but feel that they are just pushing the work to me. They knew that I would definitely edit the work so why not just do a sub-standard work and let me edit. But if their work hadnt been sub-standard in the first place, I wouldnt even edit/change it. Maybe they did try their best, just that I didnt see it.
It just feels so fucking unfair when others are getting the same marks when you did 3/4 of the work.

Besides, nothing will change. Vnc complained about proj for the pupil welfare scheme last year and nothing came out of it. Maybe I should secretly be glad that bio sia is done alone (except for the fact that the topics sucks).

credits to yingxiang.
This was how YingXiang & I kept ourselves awake on thur night/fri morning.

I really wonder why I'm bothering to do all this. Somtimes I really want t heck and give up. But that would kill my grades, horribly. As much as I want to stop, I wouldnt. It's always the same cycle.
The thing is , I dont even know why I'm so fucking busy. It's not like I have a lot of commitments (compared to some people). Or maybe, I do know why.
Maybe a certain person is right, I should just give others a chance and trust whatever they've send me.

Korean fans (+ china fans) are damn lucky. There's this system by SM where they can send messages to their idols via sms/online, the idols can choose certain messages to reply. Changmin's replies (behind lj cut) totally makes my day x) Mel & I laughed for hours over it last night.


( Changmin & his sacarstic replies x} )

I think my dad's amazing. He won the same prize in his company's cny dinner lucky draw two years in a row - a hamper. Before that, he won cameras for two years. I wonder what it's gnna be next year.

I've finally got around to post some pictures.

The cool panda that Eli, Mel & I got. (it's wearing the 3D movie shades)
Convo between yx & I in class, with the panda :
Mj: My panda is called 球龄宝.
Yx: HUH WHY ?!
Mj: Bcus my friend's panda is called 保龄球
*yx laughs non-stop* 


Me, Cheryl, Soo Chin & the China students.



Oops my eyes are closed :/


International dept students (mostly koreans) 


International dept students, the girl is from Laos (COOL) & the freaking adorable indo boy !!

I pity people who are on my friend list. They'll have to put up with my emo boring posts. But I guess that's the way I usually blog, it had been like this in sec 2. And it will be this way (probably) in the future. My blog is more of my thoughts instead of my daily life.

It's a little early for me to decide on what CCA I want to join in JC, but it has been on my mind for the past few weeks. I've played table tennis 8 years. That's not a short period of time. As much as I dread going to trainings at times, i still love this sport. I can probably imagine some people havin shocked expressions on their faces now. "MJ actually likes table tennis". Haha yeah, I really do. Now I'm torn between whether I should continue this CCA again in JC, or I should join some other CCA. But frankly speaking, with the exception of me wanting to join frisbee, I really cant imagine myself in any other CCA other than table tennis. Or rather, I highly suspect the possiblity of me getting into a CCA that I like, other than table tennis. Sports CCA usually wont accept new players and I dont want t join any clubs. Vnc & I want t try for frisbee (if hwa chong has it). It would be great if I get into that since frisbee sabs was awesome x) but then again, I would still go for table tennis audition. The thought of going for a table tennis tryout scares me, it would be traumatising if I dont get through. But it's unavoidable, everyone has to go for the tryout since there's no such thing as DSA for us. Sirui's prbly not joining table tennis, it would feel weird without her around. Althea, Jenifer & Cel are prbly continuing.

Decisions, decisions.

Boys over flowers (korean ver. of meteor garden) is freaking good !! & It helps that they've an awesome cast.



It's the first version (and prbly last) version of meteor garden in which I'm actually taking notice of the entire F4 instead of just Tsukusa or Rui.
But still, I think no matter which version, the guy I ended up liking the most is still Hanazawa Rui :}
(He's the one in the pink suit below)

I should be editting my LA essays or researching for the chinese compo tmrw but here I am, blogging. Yvn would be happy when she sees this, hahaha.
Despite my attempts at slacking, I have run out of sites to browse. All the lj coms and spree sites never seem to be updating, or maybe it's just that I visit them too often.
Anw chanced upon YingXiang's blog today. Some of her posts really makes me laugh. (and it is making me to blog in chinese haha)

2008年。
这一年过得一点也不容易。新的班级、新的同学、新的朋友、新的老师、新的开始。与其说不容易，不如说。。很苦。2008年过得不快也不慢。过去几年，总是会觉得时间过得很很很快。POOF！半年就飞过了。但今年。。什么也没感觉到。就是一天一天这样的过。
我的想法正好和她的相反。和前两年相比，去年如闪电般的闪过。转眼间，新的一年又到来了。可能是我在前两年完全对学习没兴趣，时常因为没准时叫功课而闯一身祸。在学校的时间好像一分一秒的慢慢飘过，快也快不起来。中二那年，差点因为成绩差而被踢出南洋。那时，我才真真的发现自己是都么想呆在南洋的。今年，我更认真的对待学习。功课到期的日期一个接着一个来，时间也自然而然的快乐起来。
其实，不只对学习，自己的人格也往好的方面变得许多。不过有时动不动对人发火那也是在所难免的。不过真正来说，对他人发火是不能改变已发生的事情的。有时，我真想对那些我发过火的人道歉。

Mengjie.
The first person i got to know in 307. 奇怪吧。我们才认识一年，可是说到2008年要感谢的人你却是第一位我想到的。其实也不奇怪啦。。整年来我的生命都围绕着ZMJZMJZMJZMJ。时不 时都被“ZMJ”吓死。是。。我很怕你。你太厉害、太厉害了。我大多数的projects都是跟你做的。谢谢你总是把一切安排得妥妥当当，谢谢你容忍了那 么多，谢谢你所有的付出。我知道我很白痴，很多事情都不会做。我会努力的>< And thanks for being so nice to me.
(I'm switching back to English, blogging in chinese makes the post sound so sentimental)
Haha, I should be happy that I was the first one that she thought of x) Hmm, I think she is the first who thinks that I'm s-c-a-r-y. O_O shocking. But I'm not exactly that surprised considering that I would always sound damn pissed on msn whenever the project dates are near. It's just how I'm like, and it will only last for that day.
Yingxiang, you're not 白痴. Seriously. Every single thing that you send me are useful and definitely showed how much effort you placed in finding the info.   :)

Akanishi Jin.
Thank you for coming into my life. I dont know why or how you attract me this much. You’re arrogant, easily jealous, wants to be the top for everything, hates to admit defeat, scandalous(said by mj), horny(said by mj) and sick(said by mj). Yet i still love you. I think they all are true (except those said by mj).

Hahahahahaha x}

{._.} si rui says:
and you knw i met hui yi in the canteen tday
{._.} si rui says:
and she asked me AGAIN -.-
MJ. says:
and ?
{._.} si rui says:
altho i was so obvly avoiding their sms-es and emails !
{._.} si rui says:
then i told her
MJ. says:
she messaged me yesterday.
{._.} si rui says:
the notes can. but the worksheets. they're exactly the same
{._.} si rui says:
then she was like "o.o really? the tchers said they have been vetted" (but like how much can they change!)
{._.} si rui says:
so i was like yah.. i think their more or less the same. then she was like oh... ok in that case nvm (:
MJ. says:
yeah seriously they dont change much one.
{._.} si rui says:
so hopefully she doesnt go bug u two anymore either -.-
MJ. says:
*prays*
{._.} si rui says:
hahah ! like mayb the mistakes only -.-

I think Yvn's the reason why I'm lj-ing most of the time, since she would be like "you're not blogging again !" (refer to previous post's comments) when I stops blogging for a few says. Haha yvn.

Anw hmm school has been pretty hectic, with all the sias thrown at us and not to mention that I've yet to finish my holiday hmwk. I still havent fully adjusted myself to the school mode considering all the fangirling that I've done for the past few days. (Much thanks to yx who distracted me when I was studying for probability quiz ) Anw I'm gnna rant about my juniors below so you can ignore it if you want.

Seriously, some people should start to learn to show some respect to their seniors like wtf. Saying stuff like "oh they are finally here' is totally disrespectful and it's not as if you're like the model player or smth. Firstly, when we go for trngs has n-o-t-h-i-n-g to do with you. We're not like you, a freaking enthu nerd who just loves table tennis so much that you would turn up way before it starts, screams when you're losing or worse, glare/scold your doubles partner when she loses. Like seriously, you're just a junior so stop acting so big and a know-it-all. If you think that being a psl is so bloody stressful then quit. There's no need to complain to the entire world or rather, to people that they dont even give a damn about you. I realised that I really can't stand the way the sec _ this year act. In the past, I used to think that MZ was quite mean when she openly scold/criticise them but now, it sounds like the perfect solution to make them shutup.
As for certain other people, I know that you guys are nice. But NY never changes their worksheets so if I lend you guys my file, you can just copy every single thing and I dont think it's fair, to me and your classmates. Besides, you guys are already in such good classes so there isnt really a need to be so kiasu. I alr said that I can teach you guys if you want or lend certain worksheets but not my entire triple science files. That would be ridiculous. It was already a ridiculous thing to ask, I never even asked Jodie/Melissa them last year for theirs.

I forgot to mention this just now.
Vnc & YJ, thanks for putting up with me for being always ! Vnc, it can be practice for you since they says that daiki's often late too haha xD

Okay, my new year resolutions ! 

1) I will stop last-minute cramming for tests. Since I will have to cram alone if I continue doing now that Vnc has decided to abandon me (Haha vnc dont kill me please).
2) I will not spend more than 50$ on JE stuff every month -> I think it will fail, miserably.
3) I have to try to control my temper before stuff that I regret starts shooting out my mouth when people pisses me off.
4) I have to learn to not to be pissed when others dont do their parts for projects / anyhow do.
5) I must be more considerate to others (:
6) I will try not to be glued to my com every night stalking JE stuff.
7) I have to do all my worksheets myself and not half of it (at times) and ending up asking chuxi for help (=copying).
8) I shall try to score high for the hanyu shui zhun kao shi in april and get A1 for chinese O levels so that my mum would stop complaining about my chinese. (Completely impossible though i think).
9) I have to attempt to see the light about Language Arts and how wonderful it is so that I would not dread all the LA hmwk and aim to score high for it.
10) I will stop ponning training and go for at least 2 time a week, maybe 3 we shall see.
** I will score a msg of 1.2 for this year (along with vnc) so that we can get our parents to give us tons of $$$ to get JE + cute stuff when we go Japan.

I think i should stop making any more new year resolution since they're getting kind of impossible.

Happy New Year everyone ! It's two thousand and nine :) 
Since 2008 is already over, it calls for a reflection post on last year.

Firstly, the new class - 307, the biggest change this year.  It was way better than what I expected. Imagine walking into a class where you do not know a single person at all. It was scary. Everyone else seems to have someone else from their ex-class, besides knowing other people from their ccas or elsewhere. I was the only one from 202 with no cca-mates there and not knowing anyone. And there was the _______ thing. But everything turned out to be okay, within weeks. If I had not gone to 307, I would not have been friends with all the wonderful people.

Chuxi
Thanks a lot for everything, & I seriously mean everything :) You've really helped me a lot this year, especially in the schoolwork area. Letting me call you at 11pm the night before the chem block test to explain to me the stuff that I don't get, or before math eoy/block test, calling you and bugging you in school about how to do the question. Once, I even called you thrice in one night. You told me to do other quetions first while you work that one out, without being annoyed or anything. Also, you would always share the notes that you got from your squadmates with me, before I even ask you to. And telling me random bits of info that you've found out. Also for helping out a lot with the projects, and not minding doing for them at times. I have never ever seen you pissed off with me even though I know that I can be really cranky when people dont do their parts for the sias/ do it wrongly. It's truly a miracle considering that I even pissed Yingxiang off for bio sia (which is a miracle too). You're like the most tolerant person that I've ever knew. No matter what you do, you would always take others into consideratinon. No matter how much I complain to you about sias and stuff, you'll always be like 'aiya nvm luh', 'no choice' and stuff.  Also, it's ensuring to gossip to you about stuff since I know that you're not going to tell anyone. So really, thanks a lot for everything !<3

YingXiang
Fellow fangirl <3 and the first person that I talked to in 307 ! :D Haha, shouldnt you thank me for bringing you into the fandom? It adds joy to your life ! (heehee). I think the most memorable thing that you've done for me this year was sending me a birthday message at 12am sharp. It was, touching <3 I totally didnt expect you to remember my birthday because I dont think I ever told you when it was, and besides, I didnt remembered your birthday till that day itself :/ . & you even thought up of a joke for it, haha thanks ! Also another thing is projects, you helped a lot for them. Like staying up till 3am, 4am to edit and stuff. I really appreciated it :) since you're doing it on top of your HMP sias+hmwk too ! You're also another one who never gets pissed with me, and always been accomodating. And going all the way to kino to help me and Vnc get our jap mags when we're in china. The six mags aint exactly light either. Oh and going to school especially to get the $$ from Vnc too, thanksss <3

Su Xiang
I missed your screams to my right ear during the holidays. It feels awfully quiet now. Anw thanks for being a wonderful deskmate and a fangirl-mate (at times) :) It was fun fangirling with you and sharon during lessons, and also gossiping with you ! I still cannot forget how you did your math worksheet correction 3 times in order to get the correction mark, hahaha. xD

Secondly, the extremely special friends : )

Vanice
Like what you said in the christmas card, 2008 had been a wonderful year for you and I've been a big part of it. It's the same for me too (: I appreciated every single thing that you've done for me this year and I'm really really really glad that we became bestfriends. If I hadnt known you, my life would be have been really boring. It's weird recounting how we became close, island creamery (stalking keith tan) and running away from the ahlians. I remember at the end of sec 2 (during the sleepover i think?!) when we were emo-ing that we are bound to drift apart now that we're in different classes. But nope, it didnt happen. we three are still as close as ever, or even close actually ! You've always been someone who I can confide everything in, and also agreeing with me on a lot of stuff. And also someone who I can do everything with, last-minute cramming, shopping, fangirling etc xD It's amazing how we aint in the same class but we are able to keep up with all the happenings in each other's life. Anw especially thanks for what you got me for my birthday ! It's like the best present that I've received <3 The cake was a-m-a-z-i-n-g (hikaru! ), and the mag + kame file !! And the thoughtful word doc letter which you instructed to open at 12am like three time, hahaha. I really appreciate everything and all the time we spent together, in the past and also will in the future <3 (okay this is getting a little lesby so I shall stop here).

YouJia
Recess-mate, bff<3  Counting back, i think we've gone for almost all the recesses + lunches this year together ? Besides that, countless shopping trips, going to sentosa (june hol right ?), studying sessions, baking for mother's day with vnc, christmas dinner etc. I really appreciate all the fun times that we had together <3 You''re forever thinking up of crazy ideas to have fun, let's continue to have christmas dinner every year with Vnc ! I think we became close when we went on shopping trips almost everyday in sec 2? & gossip throughout, it was fun. Anw your predication about us three staying close came true and I'm sure that this will continue for years ahead. Remember how we talked that we would have christmas dinners together till we're 40 and our children would have it together too, maybe it will happen (: Thanks for the wallet you got me for my birthday, just in time when i wanted to get a new wallet ! & also helping to buy food whenever you're released early. And not getting pissed when I couldnt go for recess tgt bcus of projects. I will try not to cancel out last minute ! (haha). So yeah, really thanks a looooot for everything <3 Especially the recess thing, I bet we're like the only people in ny who does that ! Hahaha, but I will definitely look forward to the fun recesses waiting for us in 2009 ! X)

Yvonne
Fellow fangirl ! Haha, you succeeded in getting me into the JE fandom. But I dont regret it a single bit, it has definitely made my life more interesting and fun xD Anw thanks for telling me random news about JE stuff everytime ! And sending me JE vids/ songs over MSN, recommending to me stuff. Especially Kat-tun ! Haha, how weird that I used to dislike them so much yet like them so much now. This is a little overdue, but thanks for sec 2 too ! Doing a lot for OM (and really a lot), and home econs. Remember how we were always saying that our food seem to look the best hahaha. And a wonderful deskmate then ! You were always entertaining me with stuff about Jin at that time. So yeap, thanks for everything ! <3

Yitian
You've been a really special friend to me, since primary one. Words cant describe everything that you've done for me. Especially during the period when I had the quarrel with Li Bing and Serena. I would never ever forget that :) And for always accomodating to me, and basically everything. I think you're someone who probably know me the best. If I were to list out everything, this post is gnna be super long so you shall read what I wrote in your christmas card ! Even though we're unable to meet up now that we're in different schools but you're still a very special bestfriend to me <3

Sirui
Hello table tennis bestf ! Table tennis had been fun because of the breaks when I would gossip with you about random stuff ! Or wandering about the school together during competition period. Thanks a lot for the fun times that we had for the past 3 years ! Even though we did not had time to go out tgt / study session this year, I hope that we would be able to do them tgt next year ! xD

Celestine
Hello table tennis mate ! Thanks for putting up with me when i decided to pon trng like half an hour before it starts and left you to go to go for trng alone. And also for being there in sec 2 when we used to talk on the phone a lot bcus I was mate. Even though we dont hang out that often, but still thanks for everything :)

There's still a lot of other people that I want to thank but I shall just keep the post short (even though it's already quite long).

Sirui just got me (blank)'s both emails, wonderful ! Vnc, if you are reading this, we can give it to (blank) as part of the (blank) xD

Yay thanks dear !<3